I will running again

Every morning, a zebra wakes up knowing
it must run faster than the lion or be killed.
Every morning, a lion awakens knowing it must
outrun the slowest zebra or starve to death.
It doesnt matter if you a lion or a zebra.
When the sun come up, you better be running.



Defeat and failure. Lack of meaning in your life. All these kind of things make me tired. However, it is the sign  for me to start again. To run again. To leave the old behind and embrace the new. To ignite a new spark that will light a new life with a deeper meaning, broader experience and much more strength.

I started fresh for many time and hopefully for this time too. Because, like or not, changes is only the permenent thing on the universe.Sometimes, starting over mean that you are not the same person to be.I no longer attracted by the same thing. But, it is ok. I dont blame myself and also not to resist it.



And now i hope l had made the running. Make the first step. Even a running also start with just one step. And i also hope for this race i used to be in the right path, my own path. Just give me your support so that i wouldnt stop from running . Just believe in me...



In the morning, the sun will come up again.
Friends, i'm not telling you, you will be able to stop the race.
But, i do promise you that as i discover the way to win,
i will become one hell of a runner.




My daddy said, 
Dont be a lion nor Zebra. Be a human kind who rule the world and those who live in.

Looking Forward

-Two words from my respected friend-






Walaupun sedikit menyedihkan tapi bagiku sememangnya benar.
Walaupun sedikit mengguris hati tapi bagiku sememangnya benar.
            
Angan-angan bak impian terbang tinggi jatuh ke bumi. Kawanku mengatakan hidup perlu diteruskan walaupun jauh berliku-liku. Perkara yang sudah terjadi takkan berubah kembali. Bukan aku tak mahu menerima takdir Allah tapi hati ini sesekali ini tidak mahu mengalah. Namun aku mula sedar perubahan perlu aku lakukan. Sedikit demi sedikit beransur pergi walaupun masih meninggalkan parut kepada aku.


Bukanlah setiap kemajuan itu perubahan, tetapi setiap perubahan bermula dengan kemajuan. Kata-kata ini aku akan sentiasa pegang agar setiap perbuatan yang aku lakukan akan sentiasa istiqamah lebih-lebih lagi dalam perjuangan yang sedang aku tempuh.


Sesekali juga aku teringat kata-kata daripada ayahku. Perubahan yang perlu dilakukan bukanlah senang, kadang-kadang kita terpaksa melawan arus kemodenan yang selalu melalaikan. "Eliminate the disturbance is the key to sucess".



Namun yang paling penting bagiku adalah hubungan kita dengan sang pencipta. Aku tidak mahu melihat dari sudut pandangan yang mengatakan usaha semata-mata kerana akhirnya kita akan kembali kepada Allah sebagai jalan terakhir. Rezeki itu luas namun aku sedar rezeki itu bukan padaku untuk kali ini.





        








Unsuccesful is the time to looking forward. Looking forward is quite important.
Though for this little girl does not really matter as her path is free of obstacles.

Tika Hati Menangis

Kebelakangan ini kesedihan seringkali melewati waktu hidupku.
Sejauh mana aku mampu megharungi tiap-tiap permasalahan  yang datang.
Sekurang-kurangnya aku masih ada tempat mengadu selain kepada ibu bapaku.
Sungguhpun tiap kali aku melupakannya waktu dalam keseronokan.
Moga-moga tangisanku kau dengari......

Tuhanku..

Ketika hati menangis, hanya kau sahaja yang tahu

Tuhanku..
Ketika mereka meninggalkan aku sendirian
Ketika dunia tiada simpati,
Kau tetap mendengari rintihanku..

Padamu tempatku menagih kasih
Ketenangan kerasakan mendekatiMu
Kesunyian malam tak terasa

Tuhanku..

Ketika aku dalam kepayahan, dalam sendirian dihimpit cubaan
Kau berikan aku erti kesabaran, mengajar erti penyesalan

Lantas bukakanlah pintu hatiku, memohon taubat
Pada hambaMu yang melupakanMu

Tuhanku..
Ketika aku buntu
Kau berikan aku jalan, menambahkan kekuatanku

Kau takkan biarkan ak sendirian

Tuhanku..
Yang Maha Pengasih, lagi Maha Penyayang

Syukur melangitku kepadaMu

Sungguh aku rasa berdosa kerana sering lalai
Semoga penyesalanku kau terima....

"And i will find my strength in pain...and i will change my ways"


 -Ahmad-

Inside These Secret Gardens

 No two gardens are the same. 
No two days are the same in one garden.











I have been so fascinated by "gardens"..
specially the ones I stumble on, unexpectedly..
the ones vibrant with life and dreams..
even the ones wilting away, some more beautifully and tragically than the rest..
the ones we walk through on a late afternoon..
but most of all the ones we hide deep inside ourselves. Yours, maybe..
tell me,
what would someone find in your secret garden ?
And what is it secret ?









"One who plants a garden, plants happiness"